You must accept the reality of other people. You think that reality is up for...– J.K. Rowling, The Casual Vacancy (via quotes-shape-us)
elmerslube: eating disorder logic: i’m lonely i’m going to isolate myself i’m hungry i’m going to starve i’m full i’m going to eat i feel enormous i’m going to go binge now i can tell i’ve lost weight i’m never eating again i’m happy i’m going to trigger myself i’m sad i’m going to pretend i’m fine gum has 5 calories no ice cream has a million calories i’m going to eat a whole seven...
applebright: seriously considering filling my pockets with glitter and whenever someone near me says something really stupid or rude i’ll just reach into my pocket with a dead expression and release the glitter into the sky above their head and watch it shower over them like a baptism of stupid
thenorthumberlandfusilier: gini-baggins: ...
Dear me: Stop blaming yourself for others mistakes, you did not make that U turn to deserve that ticket, you did not forget your license to deserve that ticket. You are not a bad luck person, remember you woke up really happy with yourself and thankful to God this morning. So stop saying all this is your fault, beacuse it’s not.
So I have therapy tomorrow, and I know I really need it, but I don’t want to go, but I REALLY need it. Oh well, there’s hell inside my head right now.
I want to eat but I want to loose weight then I don’t want to eat but since I’m in recovery I have to eat, but I want to loose weight, and there’s this thing from hell named ‘chocolate’ and I want it so bad but it’ll make no good to me. Did I mention I want to loose weight? Oh well, fuck you ED!
Listening to your body will never fail you, but...
Getting ready to go inpatient in about an hour. I’ll be there for a week. I’m scared.
I just feel like crying. Tomorrow I’ll go inpatient for a week, my therapist said it’s urgent at this moment of my life. I’ve been through this before but still, I’m so scared. Tonight I just want to cry.